I lay my head down for the first time today. It suddenly becomes really obvious how exhausted I really am, hours of jumping from roof to roof can tire a person out. It makes me think to other kids from my school. They were probably up texting their friends, talking about their crush. I bet they werent even tired, they dont do anything besides come home after school and study. Just imagining having that luxury makes me smile wide enough for the moon to see. Somtime's this life is just too much, too many packages to deliver, too many lives to save, too little time. I just wonder what will happen to me in the future, the possibility of dying tommorow is higher than id like to admit. Even if I do survive through highschool, what can I do then? I want to get out of this country and find somewhere where I can be happy and not have to worry if my house will be stormed by soldiers while I sleep.
But I was born into this life, I cant even remember a time when we were free to do what we wanted, to worship who we wanted. Egypt had now become this place that only existed in movies, ones where dictators like ours ruled only because the world had went to hell and the apocalypse burned through everything. But what can I do? a 16 year old with no power besides that of my fists? I wanted to help people, I wanted to end their suffering. But for now I guess I'm stuck here, wondering what violence ill face tomorrow. This is my life now, I'll have to learn to love it.
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